respite

i need respite and recluse. time to rest, time i'll lose.

moving on, climbing out. breakaway, break free.

Escape.

can't go forward; can't fall back.

What the hell have I gotten myself into. ffs.

thoughts

down boy. settled thoughts and clear mind. go about my day in peace. walk around with no worries.

this is my day.

Okay

alrighty. tirade. botched. tired. finality. inconsistency. why.

i'm suppose to be done. supposed to have one leg out the door with the other soon to follow. let go erphie, it's not hard. there's nothing to be gained, nothing to be reaped. there's near zero benefit.

yes i'm done. i'm so done. i need medicine. i need fuckitol.

fuuuuu-

i feel the pain of others. more than them sometimes even. but do others feel mine?

done

im so done. it's gonna take another long while again. im just so so tired. i really really wish my feelings had never went down this road. fuck it im out.

afternoon thoughts

my days have just been filled with work and the dreary routine of everyday. but it has to be said the only few things can break this monotony. it is therefore so glaringly clear the i have fallen. will i ever climb out, maybe. but i dont really want to to be honest