c'mon no i don't mean the haze that clogs up the air. more like, its the haze that blurs the thoughts in my mind and makes life just a tad bit more difficult.
so i just completed year 1, and currently have 2-3 months of idling. this gives me loads of time to focus on myself. at the same time, since im not distracted by school, i've realised a few things.
i've gotten over singlehood a long time ago, but i was not ready to date again. not ready to take the plunge and build another relationship from scratch.
but recently (1-year ish) i've been really drawn towards an individual. this person makes my knees weak, and when i'm in their company, i feel very very comfortable. there's an air of uncertainty yet assurance about this person and it drives me crazy trying to figure out their mysteries.
we spend time together and i'm smitten every time we meet. we've had heart to heart talks, and we've discovered plenty of things about each. this is where the hazy part begins.
because of my knowledge about said individual, it would make a romantic relationship impossible between us. that's just so unfair! why of all people would i fall for them if it's an impossibility?!
i'm a little angered by my own feelings myself. "just forget about the person if you know its impossible" people might say. yeah sure. even though i know nothing will come out of it, it doesnt make my feelings go away. it doesnt make me enjoy our time together less. it doesnt stop giving me butterflies whenever we talk.
i would love to forget, but it's as impossible as a relationship between us.
haze
Wednesday, May 17, 2017
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