Reality Check

During these holidays, i have really thought i was on top of the world. Ohohoh how dumb i was. hmms, that top of the world feeling has changed. REALLY changed. now im feeling that i cant accomplish anything, and it would be better if i jus stood aside and did nothing.

1) Personal
I just don't feel comfortable, i seriously don't know why. is it because of what im feeling ? right now i cant tell. to say its sadness is an overstatement. to say its happy, is dumb >< i guess u can call it confused, cos i dun seem to have a purpose i life during these long hols.

2) Family
I declare my family unstable. My mother hates my step grandmother and vice versa.
my dad is the one trying to make peace but he cant much while i am caught in the crossfire. i guess its ur classic case of family instability at home, but don't worry i won't grow up to be a gangster,

3) My love life? = non-existent
I guess for my personality, its difficult for me to find anyone. i thought i found one that dae, only to have been thrown back to reality when it ended. don't think im arrogant saying that im spoilt for choice, what i mean is, that its hard for anyone to ever take a second look at me. im the person u can easily miss in a crowd, insignificant and boring.

4) Friends ?
So far, this is the group i can rely and fall back on. i have great friends who always lend me a listening ear and i can pour my feelings out to. yeah i know it sounds gay, but im not -_- guys hav feelings too. well if u think my feeligns are complicated, imaagine how worse it would be if it was a girl's feelings


hahas



wells after this post, i hope that none of you reading would think that im emo. its just one of those days where i dun feel like myself. Those odd days when things don't go ur way. It kinda makes me sad sometimes but what the heck thats life. and please don not think im lame, this is a blog, therefore i hav ethe right to express how i feel.

In summary
I am not Gay
I am not Emo
I won't grow up to be a gangster
I more unstable that you think
I am bored