reflections

most mornings nowadays i wake up with a lot of trepidation and foreboding. i am never able to pinpoint the exact cause though.

usually what happens is that i'll wake up like that, then have to slog through the day to feel normal by night time. only to wake up the next day feeling shitty again.

it just sucks waking uo this way because i know im not usually like that. i put on a smile for the people i care about because i dont want them to worry about me.

this struggle is something i must undertake alone.